miss my mom

I did Travel Yukari(my cousin)and her mother who is the sister of my mom.
She sound and looks like my mom.
I remember my mother.
And family fights, and talking happily together, without constraint
they say everything which they want to say. I missed my mom and cried.
I chose the path of my choice?
What was it good really?
I and my mom are estranged from each other.Is it only me that I want to bridge the gap that has gone cold between us?
Beg for forgiveness and choosing to be with him is too selfish too?
I don't have any good idea , but have a lots tears....
I was crying I just (laughs)ﾊﾊﾊ